Until I started becoming aware of having alters.
lol Last fall when I went to the clinic for anxiety, they asked me what the date was and I was 3 weeks behind.ĮTA: I also have almost no memories of being scared. I also never knew what day of the week it was until I got a job that required me to live by my Outlook calendar.An old boyfriend who was a doctor told me if I showed up in his ER he would have me assessed for a head injury. And waking up with wet hair and the bath towel on the floor instead of on the rack where I always leave it and realizing that I must've already had a bath. It's coming out of the bathroom and not remembering that I have a pot on the stove, even after it boils over. It's the uneasy feeling I get when a friend saying that we already talked about this, or forgetting that the person I just spoke to is someone (an old boyfriend) that I'm mad at. I think I might have really good memory sharing between parts/alters of like short term memory stuff? It helps to hide the amnesia. And shit I forget the other thing that I was gonna say. The fits and spurts can be minutes or hours.Įdit to add: I get amnesia around switches too. I don't know how time passed from like 1:30 to 5 tonight. Someone in my head was startled that it's February just tonight. After all, someone who should know has repeatedly warned us that: no nation can survive two civil wars. Indeed, should we continue to exhibit amnesia as we still recklessly do, then our collective peril is imminent. But some alters/parts lose time in large chunks of days. This is the only way in which remembrance, as embodied in the date of January 15, can be meaningful. It just pops in my head in a way that could have been a part/alter reminding me. There are many reasons to get amnesia, the primary reason is traumatic stress, some times old age can also lead to amnesia. (Wtf can I remember that?) 10 minutes later? I remember what did Saturday. Someone asked me on Tuesday what I did over the weekend and I said something like I can't remember Saturday right now but I did lots of chores Sunday. I lose details: conversations, content I've consumed, therapy appointments, events. It's like someone has seen you trying to find what you did today and when you can't find it they hand you the report and as you're reading it comes back.
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